…And then I was 36 mg/dl!

I shoulda known some drama was coming. After all, my fluctuating blood sugars have been on my mind these days on the road, as evidenced by the post below. 

So here it was yesterday another beautiful morning in Sydney and I took my first plunge in the pool: 30 laps – mind you they’re mini laps given the size of the pool. Yet apparently I experienced a delayed low, or a stacking problem taking two many mini injections back to back. At one point when I thought I was dropping, I grabbed a piece of a fruit scone only to discover, no, I was going up! So, I dosed another unit of apidra which two hours later had me breathing shallowly and testing to discover my blood sugar was 36!

The husband jumped into sound panic mode. I said, “Go downstairs and bring me a glass of juice. I’ll be O.K.” (or so I hoped). Moments later the juice arrived, the husband was playing watchful nurse and according to the ‘The Rule of 15 ‘(15 grams of fast-acting carb and test in 15 minutes for a low) 15 minutes after downing the juice I was a splendid 82, and 15 minutes later a stable 119. And so today it’s ferrying into the city, meeting friends for lunch, testing, calculating, and so it goes, and goes and goes…………

Diabetes gets tiring on the road

It had to happen. Three weeks on the road, or more apt, in the mountains of Queenstown, New Zealand and the harbor of Sydney, my lack of being able to control my blood sugar as well as I’d like is driving me mad. Translation: being out of my routine, not taking my daily hour walk due to San Francisco-like hills, and finding constant surprises at lunch like a chicken and avocado sandwich that comes on doubly thick slabs of sourdough bread with mayo or a  thimble-full of quiche that comes in a carb-laden pastry shell is wearing me down. 

Then foolish me, I underpacked my Lantus SoloStar insulin pen needles. I had several sample packs of “click-on” needles and misread the 8 mm size as 8 needles in a pack. Unfortunately I have discovered there are only 3 needles in  a pack. So now I have five more needles to get me through 20 more days on the road. Now, tis true, I don’t change the needle every single day, but every two to three days and this won’t get me through. Luckily, I have experimented and I if I stick a syringe in the rubber stopper of the SoloStar as far as it will go, I can withdraw the Lantus as if from a vial.

I just said to my husband, “I’d like to be home now for one day.” He looked at me as though I were mad, here in the midst of white sandy beaches and honeysuckle. But I’d like to watch the morning news, sit at my computer, poke my nose into my neighborhood shops, and with that put on my sneakers for my walk around the park and reach into my refrigerator and cupboard for my usual foods. I don’t really think I’m yearning for snow and frigid temperatures but the comfort that my routine gives me managing my blood sugar. While my crankiness will lift, right now as the Brits would say, diabetes is just “a little up my arse” after 17 days on the road. 

Grappling with food on the road and a sunny Christmas in Sydney

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I can’t complain about a vacation that’s taking me from Queenstown, New Zealand, to Sydney, where we are now, to Singapore, Tokyo and San Francisco before I arrive home. Yet one thing that’s tough, beside the jet lag and time zone changes and more frequent blood sugar testing, is eating almost all your meals at restaurants where you can’t control your food, let alone half the time knowing what it is–well that will come in Singapore. 

Then real life comes flying in to the idyllic lull. Just today a friend back home sent me this article from theNew York Times about how low GI foods (non-starchy, non-sweet foods that raise blood sugar less and more slowly) are better for diabetics than the highly touted whole grain diet. In other words, your blood sugar will rise less and more gradually if you trade in your whole grain bread for nuts, beans and certain high-fiber crackers. 

I’ve known this for quite some time having tested my blood sugar about a zillion times to see my reaction to different foods. So, for me, every day (when I’m not traveling around the world) begins with slow-cooking steel cut oatmeal, to which I add ground flax seeds, cinnamon, low fat yogurt and peanut butter. If I eat bread or ordinary cereal my blood sugar goes off the charts. 

Luckily here in Sydney we’re staying with friends so I’ve stocked the larder with my healthy foods and gotten the expected grimace when I offer to share my yogurt and peanut butter combo. I still don’t know why Danon hasn’t produced such a flavor but no one seems to share my enthusiasm for it. So yesterday my day began with my usual oatmeal and then I had a salad with toasted almonds some raw broccoli, a few slices of ham and a spoonful of hummous for lunch and most nights here it’s fish and greens, since my friends are healthy eaters too, and there’s nothing Bruce can’t sear on the Barbie and make delicious. Of course, Singapore and Tokyo will prove to be problematic again because most dishes are rice-based. And so I will need to stick to grilled meats, miso soup and sashimi. God knows when I first lived in Tokyo 20 years ago the rice was always my menace.

But, back to Sydney. Soon we’re off to the ferry for a 15 minute ride over to the city to buy some Christmas gifts. Still having a little trouble reconciling Christmas carols with bright sunshine and 80 F temps. Guess I’ll just have to force myself to get used to it. 


The Secret – we create what we expect

Staring out the staff lounge window at the Cumberland Hospital in Fort Greene Brooklyn, just outside the auditorium where I am going to speak, I watch the traffic move along the Brooklyn Queens Expressway. Manhattan’s skyscrapers sit just beyond. I look up at the sky and whisper, “Thank you for where you have brought me.” This is my second presentation in my native Brooklyn. I’m not being so literal as to be citing Brooklyn in my thanks, but on the larger canvas of my life, to be doing this work.

I am critically aware in this moment that you never know what life has in store. Where you might be a year from now, five years from now. Surely, I never could have guessed I’d be standing in a hospital staff lounge about to speak to a group of fellow diabetics to motivate them toward better diabetes management. Not much more than five years ago I gave my diabetes management little thought. 

I always wanted to teach people that our lives are the projection of our thoughts,  and so we should plant the ones we truly want to reap, and accept our gifts and believe in our dreams. I just never knew sharing these ideas would have anything to do with diabetes. Honest, never.

When I speak to audiences I stress shifting their focus from the burden of diabetes to the rewards of doing the work — whether it’s to spend time with the grandkids, have more energy, pursue a beloved hobby or second career, or give back to the community. Most of diabetes education is about numbers, but the fabric of our life is mostly our thoughts and feelings.

Now at Cumberland Hospital I have finished my hour presentation and a woman raises her hand. After apologizing for coming late she says, “Maybe I missed this but how do you do it? How do you manage your diabetes so well?” The side conversations stop and the room quiets. Everyone is fixed on me. I begin listing all my tricks: my daily one hour power walk, using smaller plates, choosing more veggies and fiberous foods, sweeping most of the carbs out of my diet, and as the preacher in me takes over, the knowledge that my care is entirely up to me and that I don’t harbor a single doubt that I am committed to my best health.

18 pairs of eyes hold mine seeking answers from my passionate pontification. I wind down realizing how revved up I am. This rag-tag group of African American type 2 diabetics, one in a wheelchair, one with a cane, who when I began my talk seemed to only half listen, now applaud this slim white woman. I smile shyly almost shooing away their gratefulness out of embarrassment, yet I know they have been moved and the greatest gift I can give them is to accept their gratitude. 

This is what they don’t get from their doctor or their CDE — the understanding and insight of someone who lives where they live and has conquered the demons diabetes throws at them — at least most of the time. Moreover, many people I speak to are weighted down and held fearful by the loss of family members who have died from diabetes or those currently struggling with its complications. I try to bring them to a place where they can see that the possibility for their life is of their own making, not the legacy of their family members.  

Last year I learned something about my own family legacy. I interviewed my parents to get their take on what it was like for them when I got diabetes at 18. My mother told me something I never knew. “When you were diagnosed,” she said, “my heart broke.” Your father’s mother died in her fifties of a heart attack from diabetes and just before it happened they were going to cut off her leg. All I could think was this would be your future.” I was shocked to hear her say this, both because it was a revelation and by the information itself. But now that I’ve addressed enough audiences where diabetes is rampant in their families, I am grateful I didn’t know. 

Maybe if I had known what happened to my grandmother, who died before I was born, I would not have believed I could be as healthy as I am. Maybe I would have believed my grandmother’s fate would be my own, as so many people with diabetes similarly believe. Maybe not knowing allowed me to manage my diabetes and expect that if I did it well I’d be well. In fact, I believe diabetes can be a great stimulus to creating a healthier and happier life rather than falling victim to it and all the negative messages around diabetes. But maybe I would have been derailed on my way to these thoughts if I’d known what happened to my grandmother. 

I am pretty healthy after 35 years living with type 1 diabetes and I am resolute that I will continue to control what I can to have the best health that I can. It’s never been a secret to me that we create what we expect. Truth be told, that’s the good news and the bad. If you catch your thoughts more often and plant the ones you want to sow, I believe you can weight your fate for the better. Ah, see, I am teaching people just what I thought I would so many years ago.


The diabetes connection in down under Queenstown


Two stories to wrap up New Zealand as our stay here has ended and we’re on to Sydney.

1. The wool story: After days of walking in and out of shops that sell fine Merino wool, a native staple, I was in yet another shop eyeing these beautiful sweaters, gloves and hats with envy for, alas, I am allergic to one thing in the world– wool. Yet, I could not help admiring these products’ beauty. And so I said, plaintively, to the saleswoman, “It’s funny, I feel like a diabetic in a candy store, I am surrounded by these beautiful wool products and I am allergic to wool.” She looked at me curiously and said, “Really, diabetics are allergic to wool?” Of course that was not at all how I meant it. When I recounted this story to the husband, we laughed and agreed I now had a new myth for the sequel to my soon-to-be-published 50 Diabetes Myths book, “Diabetics can’t wear wool.” 

2. The unexpected encounter: Midway during our stay in Queenstown we switched from a business hotel to a Bed and Breakfast. Over breakfast our first day I heard an American accent. Steve from Rochester, Minnesota was sharing how his rental cell phone went off at 5 A. M. that morning and it was a wrong number! That’s all the ice breaker I needed to begin the usual, “Where are you from?” “How long will you be in NZ?” As the conversation wound down from sightseeing, politics and the global economic meltdown, I mention that I just finished writing a book on diabetes myths. Steve’s wife’s face, Julie, lights up. She tells us that she has type 2 diabetes. Well, that is not all that surprising for a middle aged, slightly overweight American woman, but what is surprising, and stirs an engaging conversation, is that she is working with the famed Mayo Clinic as part of a research focus group on behavioral methods for helping patients manage their diabetes. 

She begins to talk about what I have learned through the more than 100 patients I’ve interviewed: you need to understand the context of patients’ lives to help them change behavior. She recants a wonderful story of one elderly patient who tells his doctor that he wants to be put on Byetta. His doctor who would never have thought this man would chose an injectible drug (and so wouldn’t have offered it), asks his patient why he wants Byetta. His patient tells him he is soon going into an assisted living home and he wants to lose a few pounds because he hears there are a lot of available women there! [Byetta helps most patients lose weight as well as control their blood sugar.] We laughed, and we understood what few doctors do: all our choices are embedded in the context of our lives.

Julie shares about herself that after being in denial for some time after her diagnosis, she took some diabetes classes and lost weight and significantly lowered her A1c. My husband asks what her A1c is and she lights up again and tells us, “5.7!” The husband says, “You must be very proud” whereupon Julie says with both elation and sadness, “Yes, I am and I want to tell people but who would understand?!” My belief that you can experience pride because of how you live with diabetes and it can motivate you to continue to do well is confirmed, and the husband whisks upstairs and returns with two of my books, The ABCs of Loving Yourself with Diabetes, in hand for Julie. We witness a smile quickly spread across her face as she skims through the book and she volunteers that as soon as she’s home one of these books will be at the Mayo clinic. It is like an angel named Julie has sat at my breakfast table in Queenstown.

I keep saying (to anyone who will listen) the universe is continually supporting my work by throwing gems at my feet, but that morning it was Steve who said, “This is so amazing. We weren’t intending to stay here but our travel agent “stuck” us here for three days, and look what’s happened.” 

I agree Steve. And so we fly out of Queenstown taking with us the beautiful scenery, rich new memories and new bonds that were woven that morning.


Diabetes news from New Zealand

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Well, here I am in Lord of the Ringscountry — Queenstown, New Zealand to be exact, where much of the scenic movie was shot. Exceedingly nice to be here if you don’t count the 24 hours in the air and five hours on the ground it took to arrive. This is a working vacation: time to play, sightsee, visit friends as the husband and I go from here to Sydney, Singapore, Tokyo and San Francisco, and I’ll be meeting up with some folks at JDRF and Diabetes Australia and possibly do a presentation at a hospital in Singapore.

The first picture posted here is from the wharf on our first rainy day. The second, exhibits something that took me by complete surprise on my Qantas flight from Los Angeles to Auckland, NZ. A compartment in the bathroom where you can dispose of your needles. I have never seen this before, and I’ve been around, on airplanes, I mean. 

I was intrigued–is it for diabetics? Anyone with a medical condition? Drug addicts?  I asked the stewardess while deplaning. She looked at me quizzically, her facial features almost saying, “What accusation are you making asking what our disposable needle bin is for?” Was it my New York accent? As I read her face, I geared up to offer just how much I enjoyed seeing the bin because I have diabetes, but before I uttered a word, she said, “diabetes,” and then I told her I have it. She warmed immediately. I told her I’d never seen such a bin on any other airline whereupon she told me it’s standard on all Qantas flights, imagine that! What also happened seeing this bin was an internal shift: I felt free, as though I just stopped holding my breath, not even knowing I had been holding it for the past thirty years. I felt acknowledged and accepted, as if I’d just been picked for the volleyball team and everyone was cheering. I could come out of the closet now, at least  out of this bathroom, without fear of judgment; it was an immediate, rich, sensory feeling.

I have another tidbit to offer re: flying and adjusting your insulin to cover time zone changes, which I am really typically horrible at.  I read about this tactic before leaving home and it worked in this instance.  Since once I landed in Auckland it would be four hours past my usual once daily morning Lantus injection, which I take around 7:30 AM in NYC, I took 1/4 of the amount I normally do when it hit 7:30 AM NYC time (my watch still being on NYC time during the flight.) Once we landed in Auckland it coincidentally was early morning and then I took my full amount of Lantus getting right on local time for my injections. It worked like a charm! But that’s all I can offer because I always struggle with how to dose for different time zones. My usual methodology is just test every few hours and catch up with correction doses until I’m about into the third day of travel.

As I sign off this morning surrounded outside my hotel window by majestic peaks, luckily today the sun is shining over them–I am in the same room number as my street address. The husband thought this was remarkable ingenuity on the part of the hotel, to match guests to rooms that replicate their address. I, of course, thought that would be nearly impossible. When we asked at reception, the concierge told us it was a very inventive idea but no it was not something they do. So, since it’s kismet, I’m taking it as a very good sign for the rest of our travels which I will post as we proceed.

Your contribution & heading West

I said I would and I did. Today I wrote a check to the Diabetes Research Institute Foundation (DRI) for $500. DRI is the premiere Institute looking for a cure for diabetes, and half of my donation comes from the sale of my book, The ABCs Of Loving Yourself With Diabetes-– in other words, from you. Thank you. 

The other news is that I will be on a working vacation over the next five weeks, ’til January 18th. I will continue to post, although at this moment still have to figure out exactly how to do that from New Zealand and Japan! Just to say, posts may be a bit more irregular, you can’t always predict when a herd of sheep may be passing or a friendly native insists you join him at the pub or the local sento. 

Here’s to a very happy holiday and that we all swing into the new year in good health and good cheer. 

Knowledge is powerful medicine

Expected release, July 2009


It just amazes me. This very afternoon, not three hours and 46 minutes ago I turned in my manuscript for the book I’ve been writing this year–and it’s already posted on Amazon! Did you miss that? Already posted on Amazon–with a publication date of July, 2009. What can I say. Sometimes the world goes just a bit too fast for me.

I finished my book this afternoon writing a Postscript at the very end that I could only write after reading through the 300 pages I’ve scribed with a clear, objective and fresh editor’s eye. I’ll share part of it with you here:

“As I look back over writing this book: talking with top diabetes experts, conducting my research and having so many fellow patients share with me their personal story, I have learned two things. The first is that having correct information and practical knowledge is a prerequisite for living a healthy life with diabetes. The second is that you have to believe it’s worth the effort to take good care of yourself, and your diabetes, to have that life: one that’s not only healthy, but happy, productive, fluid and fulfilling. 

While it takes a bit of work, when you become the “expert” on your life, and your diabetes, you win the prize—the ability to live a more simple and ordinary life, just like anyone else.”

That is the prize, I have realized, to live a simple life and enjoy all its pleasures without always feeling like you’re carrying a monkey on your back. 

So, look for 50 Diabetes Myths That Can Ruin Your Life: And the 50 Diabetes Truths That Can Save It next summer. I do believe it will be a break away hit, maybe not a summer beach read, but surely one of the best books out there to separate fact from fiction and appeal to your curiosity. And besides, it’s chock full of stories from fellow patients, including me. 

Diabetes + My Response = My Life

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If you’ve rambled around this site a bit and read some of my posts you know my work aims to help you look for whatever good you can in having diabetes, since after all, you have it. And let the bad roll over you as best you can. And, to push the envelope so far that you create an exceptional life, not despite having diabetes, but because of it.

Granted, that’s easier said than done, and you have to be in the right place in your life and your head, and there will be days you’ll feel, “yea, I got it, whoo hoo, and days you’ll think, “I can’t bear another moment of this, another fxxckin’ high blood sugar, another low, another muffin calculation….! Well, you get the point. Still, I believe, looking for the good in life is a more worthwhile way to live.

So it struck me while reading Amy Tenderich’s blog, DiabetesMine, last week, that while Amy focuses as an experienced journalist on sharing what’s going on in diabetes research, technology and pharmaceuticals, and I know she has a whip-smart cynical sense of humor, that at the end of one of her posts she wrote, “Living well and being happy with diabetes is a delicate construct that is tested every day with fluctuating BGs, imposing tasks, and endless responsibility…  Better to appreciate the life I’m living than pine for the one I can’t have.” 

I can hardly put it better myself. Each one of us confronts the challenge of diabetes on a daily basis and how you respond to it, as how you respond to anything in life, is what creates the quality of your life. If you’re doing really well with this, or really poorly, I’d love to hear from you.

Holiday Gift: Free diabetes center in New York City

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The Friedman Diabetes Institute, part of Beth Israel Medical Center, opened last month in Manhattan. They’re located at 317 East 17th Street on the 8th Floor. All you need is a doctor’s referral to make an appointment and avail yourself of their free services. There are diabetes education classes and consults, as well as a nutritionist, exercise physiologist and diabetes nurse educator at your service. Did I say free?

December’s calendar shows weekly exercise classes being led by High Voltage, fitness guru whose ‘Energy Up’ program is helping school age kids in New York City get fitter. Trust me, there’s no other name for her spirit and passion. There are support groups for type 1s and type 2s, classes in medications, healthy holiday eating and footcare.

Did I say all this is free? What are you waiting for? If you live in the New York City  area run on those feet you want to protect and learn, learn, learn — check out your heart, your diet, your knowledge, make some new friends and get started on a healthy right foot in 2008.

Since the 1990’s more diabetes clinics have closed in New York City than are open. This is one of the few centers we have. Did I say it’s free?

Note: I found this quote on Scott’s Web log and as I think about getting the information you need to be healthy it seems so apt:

“Living with diabetes is like living with a tiger. If you feed it, groom it, never turn your back on it; you can live with a tiger. If you neglect it; it’ll pounce on you and rip you to shreds.” By Wil “Printcrafter”