I have one of those 3″ x 6″ plastic mood-visuals hanging on my refrigerator. It comes with a little red cut out square that you place over the face that illustrates the mood you’re feeling.
One thing I’ve noticed about this little mood chart is that out of the 30 moods on offer, 25 are negative and only 5 are positive. What does that say about us?
Here’s a sample of the negative choices
Here are the five positive choices
I have two thoughts about this and I’m going to share both with you.
1) We are so ingrained to see the fly in the ointment. Is it so hard for us to name positive emotions that they only gave us five? Do we spend so little time feeling positive that the words don’t come more quickly to us?
2) I can go through each of these negative emotions and tie it to diabetes. For instance:
Exhausted – After 1 billion blood sugar tests it gets a little tiring!
Confused – This isn’t the number I usually get when I eat that!
Guilty – A night of eating everything I love that just gets away from me
Angry – Stopped by security at the airport because of my insulin pen!
Hysterical – Stopped by security at the airport because of my insulin pen!
Frustrated – Having to eat just because I’m low. Damn!
Sad – I may really not make it to 80
Embarrassed – Shooting up in front of people I don’t know
Disgusted – Leaving blood trails on my newly renovated white kitchen cabinets
Frightened – What will they find in my lab tests this time?
Enraged – This disease costs a shit-load of money
Anxious – Left the house without testing and have no idea where my sugar is
Lonely – No one else knows what this is like!
Jealous – Of everyone else’s freedom
Overwhelmed – I feel lousy yet I still have to get up to test my blood sugar, see if I have to refill my meds, god, I got it wrong again?
That said, I can go through each of the positive emotions and also relate it to diabetes:
Happy – I’m in great shape overall and better shape than if I didn’t have diabetes
Ecstatic – Just started blogging for the Huffington Post as a patient-expert
Confident – I’m generally on top of things
Lovestruck – My partner couldn’t be more supportive
Hopeful – This will continue to get easier to live with
But I’d add a few more positives to my mood meter:
Peaceful – Just had my labs done, everything’s OK
Contented – Overall, I love my life
Excited – Going to the AADE to present this August
Joyful – I’ve found my passion and am in my ‘element’ as Ken Robinson says
Grateful – For everything I have: partner, home, work, friends, family, chocolate
Delighted – Lovely surprises come on a regular basis these days
Proud – While I thank my lucky stars, I did a lot to get here
The truth is we can look down and we can look up. I rarely change where my square hangs – it’s usually on “happy”. For even when I’m not happy, I’ve noticed that glancing at my happy square, makes me feel happier and think of something to be happy about.
Just an observation, make of it what you will.